Getting to know His heart a little bit more
“If God knew how much I needed him in my life, why would He taken him away from me?” This question just popped out of my friend’s lips when we were having a little bit of a chit chat in her car while she was driving around the road with no exact place to go. She was about to cry, and her voice sounded like she was losing hope. This question also reminded me of something I read in someone’s blog few days ago, it said “If there was God, then why are people I love getting sick and die…?”
I think that we’ve had this question in our mind at least once, when someone or something that we truly love and need leaves us or gone. Is our God really someone who doesn’t care at all, is He really that mean to take something away from you when He knew that you loved and needed them so much? How do we know what’s inside His heart, how do we understand His plans for us?
When I was little, I loved drinking warm vanilla milk with no sugar from a milk bottle. That’s why I had so many milk bottles at my house, and I loved loved loved all of my milk bottles so much. I couldn’t even sleep if I didn’t have a milk bottle in my arm.
Until the age of 4, I still couldn’t be too far away from a milk bottle and that kinda made my Mom worried. I was getting older and bigger and gonna go to kindergarten and I still couldn’t live with milk bottles around? She didn’t want that. So she collected all of my bottles and she told me she was gonna give them to the kids out there who needed them more than I did but didn’t have enough money to buy them. I was very sad, but I let her did that. My Mom said that at that time she felt sad too… especially when she saw me helping her packing those bottles, but she thought that all of it was for my own good.
First nights were pretty rough, cus I was not used sleeping without a bottle around me. I cried and cried cus it felt so uncomfortable… My Mom had to tuck me in and she hugged me while I was crying until I fell asleep in her arm. At that moment she said it was so hard for her cus her heart was torn to hear me crying. She almost brought the bottle for me again so I didn’t have to be sad anymore, but she decided not to do it. Until a couple of weeks after that I got used to sleep without having milk bottle, and she didn’t have to accompany me sleeping anymore.
I think that’s also how God feels when He has to let someone or something we love leaves us or taken away from us. He let those happen so we can grow being more mature and more independent. He was actually preparing ourselves to receive a bigger better deal in the end. He does hear us crying and He’s torn to hear it, He feels our pain too. But He knows that if He always gives us what we want, we’re not gonna be something that He’s already prepared us to be. He let us suffer, but actually He never leaves us, He’s there hugging us, wraping us around His arms and taking care of us and always be there for us through the process until the time when we can overcome the obstacles become stronger than we were before.
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This post is dedicated to one of my bestfriends C, hope we’ll always be together until we get olddd and our hair goes grey with no teeth left. Love u much :love:
April 27th, 2006 at 7:28 am
That’s a nice way of seeing it
It reminds me of the Footprints In The Sand story.
Though I’m not sure… I’ve never really been sure if there was a God or any entity which watched over us. Sometimes I wish there was and sometimes I wish there wasn’t
I hope your friend feels better soon though
April 27th, 2006 at 8:01 am
Good girl.
April 27th, 2006 at 10:11 am
beautiful post!!! im so goin to re-read this entry when i’m feelin down.
btw, non, daku uda link site dikaw ya ke tempatku hehehe. sorri ga nanya permission before hand. and bout my bf hand, dia laser ngilangin tato ink di telapak tangan kiri n kanan dia.
gw demen bgt ama sentences ini
He let those happen so we can grow being more mature and more independent. He was actually preparing ourselves to receive a bigger better deal in the end
well done, SheiLLa!
April 27th, 2006 at 12:57 pm
Nice post. Menyentuh sekali Shei. Ampe tarharu nih..
Btw, Rico nakal tuh Shei. Jitakin dia ya.. :haha:
April 27th, 2006 at 10:14 pm
Wow! What a great post. Your encouragement for your friend and others who are going through difficult times is amazing. Thanks for that. God bless. ^_^
April 27th, 2006 at 11:44 pm
sheills i haven’t spoken to you for aaagesss !
HAve you ever received my email ?
Do you still have yahoo messenger?
XXX
April 27th, 2006 at 11:52 pm
Aww, that was a nice post!
April 27th, 2006 at 11:58 pm
sheillaaa … where are u?? :dead:
April 28th, 2006 at 5:41 am
that is so true
*hugs for your friend! The Lord loves her/him more than he/she can imagine!*
His care is more than enough for us. GBU sheil! sorry for not visiting so long…
April 28th, 2006 at 8:41 am
my mother always told me when bad things happen its not god not to ever blame god that if it was anyone it was the devil trying to make us lose faith seeing how far he can push us. and i also believe like with my mom having breast cancer and passing away it was so hard but she was so bad and in so much pain. i feel like god loved her enough to take her out of pain that was his way of healing her. when god closes one door he opens another. she is in heaven with no pain no tears and no cancer.
ps. wish I could come to your wedding in Oct ^ ^
April 28th, 2006 at 3:40 pm
sheilla…i miss you….met wiken yah GBU
April 28th, 2006 at 7:04 pm
memang seeh kita semua pasti punya saat2 dimana kita sedih atau kehilangan orang yang kita sayang… sampe2 kita nyalahin dia yang diatas.. tapi dibalik semua it pasti ada sesuatu kate orang bijak seeh hikmatnya.. dari apa yang kita alami itu… everything happened for a reason.. dan gw percaya rencana Tuhan tuh pasti rencana yang terbaik buat kita.. someday we will reunite all internally.. even though we dont know when..good luck for your friend :yes:
April 29th, 2006 at 2:10 am
This is a great post u got here girl. And u won’t belive it but last night i was @ the church and there was this family who loose one of their loved ones and the priest was explainig the family that God never leave us alone even though we think he forget us. And that this situations are part of a process where he wants us to learn how to grow and become more mature, i think u explain to ur friend just the right way.
Do u have a new email? U still have yahoo msn? I want to send u my doggies pic
jeje
LOVES
April 29th, 2006 at 10:16 am
hi
April 29th, 2006 at 10:18 am
nice posting dan dalem bgt :yes:
kuliah di UI yah sheil? ambil fak appa?
sheila, aku link kamu yah.. blognya sumpe deh kereen banget.. huhuhu.. gmn cara bs bikin blog kek gini yah?
April 29th, 2006 at 12:54 pm
God works in a myeterious way.
April 30th, 2006 at 1:44 am
A story I once read:
One peaceful day a kid was just walking around a beautiful park. Suddenly he saw a bright light. It was God. He heard His voice: “Child, come with me. You shall see what Heaven up there and Hell down there is like.” So he went with Him.
Firs they went to Hell. Everybody was starving and it was stifling hot. They had long spoons but too long so they could not ladle from the soup cauldron in the middle of the room.
They went to Heaven next. Everybody looked well fed, happy and healthy. The kid asked, “God, God! Why are they so happy and the others are so miserable?” God said, “Because they have learned to feed others.” and that was the end of the trip.
April 30th, 2006 at 9:24 am
hi. im not much of a believer in god, based on why is he never there to save my loved ones. but you have put that into perspective for me, and i really understand what you are saying.
that was a beautiful post =]:love:
October 3rd, 2006 at 6:46 pm
Sheilla.. ini postingan yg menyentuh bangets.. Moga2 pas lagi down bisa keinget ma postingan ini